The Path Of Light

Good bye..

I have to go now

to the inner realms

And roam there

I am too tired

Of seeking

Of waxing like the moon…

Of waning like the tide ….

Of wandering out of

My soul,out of myself

I am tired now of

the web of  ties and emotions…

Unsettling dreams and desires

Unfinished … meaningless work and ways of this world

Pseudo roles..fake and hollow words…

I am too spent to walk on the

unending and twisted roads

Living and dying time and again.

For once, I want to be just me

I want to experience timelessness

I want to find the missing peace of my essence

That is lost somewhere deep within me…

For once I want to listen to the echoes of silence

For once I want to feel the rhythm in the stillness

For once I want to unveil the light in the darkness

For once I want to find my presence in the absence

For once I want to unhear the voices and just wander mindlessly,

aimlessly on the pathways of  life and not heed the noise…

For once I want the rain to drench me, the sun to burn me,

the wind to blow me away …

For once I want to live free and be irresponsible

and break past rigid rules

For once I want to be lost and to

finally find that lost inner child within me

waiting to be picked up and hugged …

Waiting to be innocently unruly and forgiven..

Waiting to yell and scream for simple joys

that are granted with a smile.

Waiting to be loved and pampered unconditionally

without the impending pressure of returning it…

For once I want to be

truthfully, completely, honestly, lovingly and

gratefully me…

And then when I shall come to meet you again…I will be complete

and in my crystal image may be

you will find your own reflection…

Good bye

Wish me luck and loneliness …

For I am reaching within the depths of my being …

and we have to let go of each other now

as our journey is our own …

And we have to go through it alone …

Good bye..

Till we meet again..

Shreeja Mohatta Jhawar is a partner in Think Unlike Events where she  organises creative and life-style transforming workshops. She is also a freelance writer, web and graphics designer as well as a social activist who runs ‘Kritagya,’ a group aiming to serve old and destitute people.