I have bathed in my tears several times
Hoping to relieve my soul and wash away the pain….
I have broken and shattered my heart
to once and for all find a way to repair its core…
I have a ‘to-do’ for every wakeful moment
so that I won’t wonder through the maze of my thoughts…
I have chattered gracelessly even when no one was listening
so that I won’t drown in the silence of my soul….
I have laughed out aloud without a gag…
Hoping to revive my worn out self
But every time I ran faster…
Hoping to escape …
I found myself reaching just where
I began…
I was circling stubbornly…the circumference of life….
Believing it was ‘living’….
Only when I stepped into the light of the nucleus
And sat there unwaveringly
in the stillness and nothingness of the moment….
I realized that no matter how long it had taken
I had finally reached my destination….
And all I had to do was to stop running in circles….
Shreeja Mohatta Jhawar is a partner in Think Unlike Events where she organises creative and life-style transforming workshops. She is also a freelance writer, web and graphics designer as well as a social activist who runs ‘Kritagya,’ a group aiming to serve old and destitute people.
very evocative…the metaphor is so apt, the poetry so refreshing, takes the reader along as it reaches its culmination.
जीवन के उस पथ पर ना जाने वो यू ही चलता रहा
सोचता रहता बस कि अब ना जाने कब होगा सवेरा
पल पल रुकता, झुकता और निराश हो यही चीखता
“कब तक सहू मैं यह अँधेरा?”
और फिर एक दिन वो आई और कही
“आँखे तो खोलो अपनी मुसाफिर, सूरज कब से हैं इंतज़ार कर रहा तेरा!” 🙂