Every one has their own equation with religion, some take it very seriously, some don’t, some have questions but keep it to themselves, some question it. I don’t know exactly which category I belong to, do I believe in God? Yes, I do. Do I have doubts about certain practices adopted by my religion ? Of course I do. Do I question them? Yes, but unfortunately no one’s come up with the best answer.
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Today when people claim that their religion is better than the other, or even worse, take up arms to hurt other religions and their beliefs, when women are raped and children murdered in the name of punishing the ‘other’, I’d like to believe that somewhere out there is an all religion loving, all people loving, all creed and caste loving God, a God who doesn’t judge, a God who doesn’t need sacrifices or all the riches of the world to be appeased, a God who doesn’t enjoy the massacre of little children and a God who just wants to be loved. And to love.
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Every night before going to bed I pray to this God, and it would be unfair on my part to say he has been unkind to me, if anything ,he has been incredibly kind to me, I don’t have stories of miraculous deeds performed in my life, because of which my faith has been strengthened but every day, every moment I feel his mercy on me. There have been many instances where things could’ve gone from bad to worse, where I would have strayed but he has brought me back, picked me up whenever I fell, to this date the first person I tell when something goes wrong is him.
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Our relationship isn’t perfect, sometimes it seems as though I’m the only person in the relationship, sometimes I act as though he doesn’t exist, there are days when we get into an argument and don’t speak for days , sometimes I’m like this nagging wife, and he like every other husband ignores me completely!
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But somewhere down the lane I need him, I need him not because I want things from him, but I need him because he’s the only person who would understand, if I genuinely am sorry, I know he’d forgive, sometimes when the day is all sunny and things don’t go the way they should, he lets a cool breeze blow by, and though things do remain as difficult as they were earlier, it is comforting to know that at least he’s watching!
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I know of a lot of disbelievers, people who say that God doesn’t exist, it’s a pity that they don’t feel his grace. I’m not the one to judge as to what makes them not believe, everyone has their own reasons, maybe each person would find the truth in their own time and space, maybe that’s a part of his will.
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What I’m not able to comprehend is why is there persecution, torture, and destruction in the name of an unseen God ? When the sorrow of our fellow men doesn’t move these religious fanatics, how can they even pretend to understand his word?
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God is bigger than any religion, he cannot be imprisoned in a book, a Temple , Church, Mosque or Gurudwara and his works and words definitely shouldn’t be misinterpreted for the selfish agendas of human greed.
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Sandra is a student, an amateur writer, reader, dreamer, shopaholic and the list goes on and on. She loves long walks on the beach and waking up to a wonderful breakfast, visiting new places and meeting new people. In short she likes every thing in life that is not black and white. Admires people who lead their life differently,who look beyond the obvious and seek to live their life according to their convictions, at their own pace and in own their time. She blogs at http://www.fortheperfectionistinme.blogspot.in/