At the age of twelve, she had crossed the borders from Bangladesh. She was a refugee of the India’s independence movement. She found shelter in her maternal uncle’s house in the suburb near Calcutta. She is 92 now. The distant memory of her journey across the border is crystal clear though she cannot recall a sentence […]
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My Own Prison…
Fear is a friend. She’s been by my side for as long as I can remember. While most friends tend to drift away or come back into my life sooner or later, she’s never wavered. No matter how safe a country, city, street or home is, she’s taught me to regard all men with suspicion, […]
The Mirror Image
The room was dark and empty and so were we, Reflecting our thoughts was a mirror in between, Of what we know about each other and what we see, Images vanished, casting away shadows to be seen. He is nothing but a false manifestation I believe, “Is it me or […]
Feminism Is For Everyone
“Men who want to be feminists need not be given a space in feminism. They need to take the space they have in society and make it feminist”. -Kelley Temple For some reason, this year began with a number of my male friends accusing my writing of being “alienating” and “scary”. I was told (by […]
Beyond The Ego
The ego’s primary job is to take offence. To feel insecure. To get defensive. To find fault. To point fingers. To never feel enough. To feed on lacks, fears, jealousy. To constantly bicker and chatter and never be at peace. If you watch how it flits from one slight to another, imagined or real, you will […]
Shifting Roots
Has it ever happened to you that you are having a conversation with someone and even though both of you were speaking the same language you couldn’t really understand a word of what they were saying? Walls of cultural references, upbringing, experiences and age separate you. You could tell them what it was like to […]
Winds Of Change
The winds of change blow hard Rattling my windows Shaking every tree in my yard I flinch under the covers Frightened and sick. ** I try to shut out the howling storm But it will not be ignored One by one the windows shatter And my blanket of safety gets whipped up in the […]
Wings Of Trust
*** I don’t want the fleeting happiness that comes from acquiring beautiful things. Nor the shallow mirth that comes from people who please you, praise you and bring you gifts. But I crave the satisfaction of one who need not try so hard to prove one self in a cruel world. One who without seeking […]
Known Stranger
She stared back at me. Deep, dark eyes. Mixed with fear and uncertainty, blended in anticipation and hope. Tried to speak. But something stopped her. A force, a faint shadow loomed behind her. It held her rigidly, yet not tightly. Her struggle pushed her back slightly, but she stood there. Waiting to be seen, waiting to reveal the shadow. […]
The Precipice
“Just one step, just one step” echoed the voices inside his head. He could taste the fear at the back of his throat, his head buzzed. “There is no way out,” said the same voices, inside his head. “Just one more step and you shall know peace like you never have before,” said the same voices, sounding […]
Domestic Help
I’ve mentioned before, I’m relatively new to Kolkata.. Calcutta. Before coming here, I’ve never had domestic help. Today, I have a cook, a cleaner and someone to look after the little ones. I’m a little spoilt, if truth be told. I’m living an easy life, free to do as I choose. But having this freedom […]
Vanished..
Seven years of marriage were enough to attune them to each other’s energy rhythms; Ratan, an early bird while wife Meeta observed owlish hours. He would be winding down at dinner time when she would go amber, ready to turn green as night fell. ** “I missed my walk today. What’s the time?” he looked across […]