I woke up with an unfamiliar feeling that gnawed at me. I slowly recognised it as resentment. Unfamiliar because I, consciously or unconsciously, I have practised not to look back unless the memories are happy ones, or not to look too far ahead for a future that is uncertain, even imaginary. This has helped […]
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Author: Rani Rao Innes
A New Year Resolution
What should I pray for this New Year? What should I resolve to give up? For me, the answer is the same for both. I pray that I can give up our “chalta hai” attitude. My resolution is, that I will not “adjust pliz” any more. “Tolerance” has become an ugly word. I am ashamed of how much […]
Choices..
It is true what they say – beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. The scene outside the window rarely changed. Whether it seemed verdant, misty and beautiful or simply bleak depended on her state of mind. Today, it appeared bleak. Maybe it was the old nostalgic songs that brought up memories of the […]
Christmas Day
“Oh, can’t eat another bite”, he said. Christmas dinner was good but the main course was disappointing he said. She agreed, there was no gravy! She looked around at heaped plates on every table knowing, just like her, they would either leave some on the plate or force themselves to eat to justify the exorbitant […]
The Unlikely Indian Heroes..
My heroes who I look up to would not be regarded as super human or larger-than-life characters but simple “ordinary” people who possess extraordinary qualities that somehow seem rare these days. In an increasingly cynical country, these unlikely heroes share a commonality that brings back my faith in humanity. In India. Their dignity and self-respect […]
Being The Change…
Like many expats I too went through the various phases of resettling back in India: ‘touristy’ excitement, disorientation, annoyance and frustration, gradual adaptation and finally bi-culturality that has now allowed me to find my own sense of belonging in what I still consider my hometown, Bangalore. This is not the Bengaluru I left in 1978. […]
Fragrant Eternity
“See, Rani, your uncle has become a face on the wall,” my aunt said with a wan smile as I walked into my uncle’s house and hugged her. This was the first time I was going back to my uncle’s house after he died last year. I’d been dreading this knowing it would be difficult […]
The Unfading Light
The dreaded day will arrive shortly and I will become 60. How and when did this happen?? “It is only a number,” people say. Well, I used to say it too. But it’s a number with a 6 in it. And I still feel the way I felt when I was 40. Heck, when I […]
The Success Of Failure
“We only hire native speakers.” This was the sixth time I had heard these words. My mouth turned dry, my face burned, and I felt the familiar sense of nausea. My sixth failure! I tried to protest yet again, the words beginning to sound hollow in my ears. I repeated what had come to me […]
The Black Opal Ring
Angry and helpless, Lakshmi ran back home as fast as her feet could carry her, away from the screams of the child. Earlier that day her friend and neighbour, Meha, had called her to say she suspected the maid’s daughter had stolen her opal ring. Meha had come out after her bath and found the […]
A Gift In Time..
Christmas Eve. Oxford Circus underground station was starting to get crowded with commuters returning after last-minute Christmas shopping. The people around us were all carrying shopping bags from department stores and toy stores. A couple of women next to me looked exhausted, tottering on their high heels, barely able to stand, loaded as they were […]
Missed Flight-3
Writer Rani Rao Innes pens an insightful three-part story about the need for freedom and the desire for roots, exclusively for the readers of Unboxed Writers. This is the final part. They went early to the station and the train hadn’t arrived. Sipping a hot paper cup of masala chai, Sapna watched the ‘railway children’ running […]