I have no food for thought today. I have a blank canvas to paint. All I have is a feeling, to pour my thoughts and color the canvas in such a way, that it makes someone smile.
I looked at an old picture today and laughed at how funny I look. But there is this raw innocence in my eyes, which I miss today. I was someone who had seen only the good life. I was a girl who had never loved, seen only success, never been hurt and never been “that happy’ either. Today I am past many heartbreaks (mine and others), many failures and many happy moments. I have realized that life isn’t always black or white but a constant shade of gray. I have realized that not everyone is meant to stay in your life, so live every moment to the best –say it all, coz there won’t be another chance. I learnt that when people go, it’s best to let go as holding on doesn’t really change anything.
But, yes, there will be few, very few, who will stick by you, no matter what. Go tell them that you love them –because of a reason or otherwise, say it aloud to be heard by their heart. Today as I see it, my life so far was full of many wrong decisions and a few good ones. But there are none that I regret. Things may have not turned out as I wanted them to be.. but they aren’t that bad either.. They are almost good.
One thing I learnt in my 25 years of life, is that Life moves on. Something better comes along, always. Never give up on Hope. It is the second strongest feelings humans have. Be Human, be super-hopeful. Let God do his job, He is, you know, perfect at it.
I have millions of mistakes to make and thousands of things to be happy about in the future. It’s been good. It’s gonna get better, if not – let go of whatever doesn’t seem worth your time.
No I don’t mean you give up on dreams if you fail because they fall in the ‘Always Worth it Category.’
It still doesn’t work, go hug someone who makes your life happy and eat some delicious food. Life is gonna be blissful ! Life is not about the guy you had to let go of or the exam you flunked or the fight with parents. Life is about the butterflies before meeting ‘him’ and the can’t-let-go-of stupid smile. It is about the book shopping and trying on new cuisines on the way. And smiling in gratitude.
Sandhya Dubey is studying to be a Chartered Accountant . She is an avid reader. An amateur photographer and has a blog, secretivewriter.wordpress.com.