I have bathed in my tears several times
Hoping to relieve my soul and wash away the pain….
I have broken and shattered my heart
to once and for all find a way to repair its core…
I have a ‘to-do’ for every wakeful moment
so that I won’t wonder through the maze of my thoughts…
I have chattered gracelessly even when no one was listening
so that I won’t drown in the silence of my soul….
I have laughed out aloud without a gag…
Hoping to revive my worn out self
But every time I ran faster…
Hoping to escape …
I found myself reaching just where
I was circling stubbornly…the circumference of life….
Believing it was ‘living’….
Only when I stepped into the light of the nucleus
And sat there unwaveringly
in the stillness and nothingness of the moment….
I realized that no matter how long it had taken
I had finally reached my destination….
And all I had to do was to stop running in circles….
Shreeja Mohatta Jhawar is a partner in Think Unlike Events where she organises creative and life-style transforming workshops. She is also a freelance writer, web and graphics designer as well as a social activist who runs ‘Kritagya,’ a group aiming to serve old and destitute people.